^2.33 I stopped her from doing this.
I said that I had not yet told her what had been revealed to me.
^2.34 One of the most important things I had learnt was that the Orthodox Jews
were entirely wrong in their belief in an avenging god.
There was no such thing.
^2.34 This frightened and upset her and she exclaimed,
^2.34.1 “How then will Jehovah govern the world and make us good
and listen to his prophets, if He does not punish us?
^2.34.2 Are you now so big that you are going to tell the High Priests
their own business handed down to them from the time of Moses?
^2.34.3 Are you going to bring more shame on this house?”
^2.35 She began to cry, saying with anger: “You’ve not changed a bit.
You’ve only changed in what you’re saying.
You have brought me nothing but grief.
How could I have ever believed you would be a Messiah?
^2.35.1 You will only lead people into greater torment than ever before,
with your strange ideas.”
^2.35.2 My brothers heard her wailing and came running,
wanting to turn me out of the house.
^2.36 Because I did not want a disturbance, I offered to leave peacefully.

^2.37 If this was how my mother reacted,
I could be sure that everyone else would react in the same way
to what I wanted to tell them.
^2.37.1 I realised I needed a quiet time of absolute rest and silence
in which to collect all my thoughts and experiences together.
^2.37.2 I would have to pray for inspired guidance on how best
to approach the Jews with my message of good news.
^2.38 I was sure that the Father_Life would meet my need,
and I would find the right accommodation somewhere.

^2.39 My mother, although furious with my seemingly big-headed attitudes,
was, nonetheless, torn with her feelings of love and compassion
for my emaciated condition.
^2.39.1 She rejected everything I appeared to stand for
– rebelliousness, contempt for the Jewish Religion, high-handed
attitudes towards authority, my self-will and arrogance,
but she still loved me and was deeply afraid
that I would eventually land up in greater trouble
than I had ever thought possible.

^2.40 She admonished my brothers, telling them to hold their noisy arguments
and turned to me. “You can stay here until you are better,” she said.
“Perhaps whilst you are here, I can talk some sense into you.
^2.40.1 I can tell you now, if you go out into the streets
and begin talking as you have to me
– you will end up in an even worse state than ever.