listened, took the bread and ate it silently.
3.141 Next, I took up my goblet of wine and passed it around,
saying that they must each drink from it
for it was a symbol of my blood
which would shortly be shed because I had dared
to bring them the Truth of Existence.
3.142.1 Soberly, each one took a sip and then passed the goblet to his neighbour. 3.142.2 But still, they said nothing.
They sensed I was in earnest and would not tolerate any more argument.
3.143 Then I told them that a certain man amongst them would betray me.
a necessary part of the future sequence of events.
3.144.1 He was but playing a role which his nature had prompted him to do.
3.144.2 I knew that he would suffer greatly and I felt compassion for him.
3.144.3 But these thoughts I kept to myself.)
to leave and do what he had to do quickly, the disciples came alive,
wondering if this was really their last meal with me.
3.145.1 Now there was a great deal of emotional distress, questions,
even recriminations for having led them into such a trap.
3.145.2 Again, they wondered what they would do with their lives
after I had gone.
3.145.3 They asked what kind of standing they would have in the community
if I were crucified. They would be an object of derision, they argued.
3.145.4 No one would ever again believe a word they spoke. 3.146.3 This touched Peter deeply and he reacted, vehemently denying
that he would ever abandon me – but of course he did.